End of week one

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone

What's up with time flying even here?
I've done a lot of things though. Haven't been at home a whole day yet.
Not planning to, either. I'll go for a short walk if I can't think of anything else.

Lots of moodswings, almost all of them not-good. I don't want to talk about it though, it's a waste of time and energy.

What happened I do want to mention?

Saturday I went for a walk and found myself walking into a free concert, just like that. Got flirted with by a couple of gangster like figures o.o;; ..

Yesterday my aunt and cousin came from Egypt. They slept the whole morning, as did everyone else, so I had the ground floor to myself for some good hours.
Then after showing them a bit around the place, around the house and such, we had a ten-minute birthday bash for my aunt whose birthday was the day before. Cake, presents and singing included in the ten minutes.

Today me and sis took my cousin to something called a child's farm. Which is basically a place with farm animals little kids can come visit and feed and pet and whatnot. Really cool place, seeing as I still love animals, I don't mind people staring at me just because I'm not a four year old. Oh well~ My cousin was afraid of practically every animal there.. Even the rabbits o.o
Weird, eh? She pinched my arm in fright so many times I figured we better leave before it'd start turning blue xD
Then we went home only to get ready for more walking.
Enjoy teh piccies?





Is teh biiiiig bunnies.
Very very big.

Uhmmm. Surrounded with les goats?
lol





See goatsies?
This is called Bread.
Bee Are Ee Eh Dee.
Buh-red.




Because Gypsy is a horse fanatic!
*luffs teh pony*





This be teh cutest guinea pig there was!
Yes, I luffs that too ;D

xxx
The Gypsy

Oh boy xD

Sometimes, I cave right in (’Times I cave right in)
But this fight you have to win (This time we have to win)
And your songs you love to sing
May your dreams forever live

Heatwave alarm. Big time.
Definitely not as hot as in Egypt, I know. But still hot enough.
I mean I'm here to avoid heat, partly xD

Have not been at home all day any day since we came.
Not even after I broke my foot xD
Grocery shopping, other shopping, markets, flea markets, bike rides, and today, job hunts.
Within a week I got a new watch, a pair of gorgeous boots, and four books. Huzzah.

I'm missing my friends. Chatting, as well as seeing those I have irl.
Having withdrawal symptoms again, I start talking to myself a lot when I'm feeling lonely.
Today I even had this lil breakdown. Just hope I'll be over it soon, I don't like being depressed.

Oh!
Actually drew sumfink today, first time in three months?
I mean actual pencil and paper.
Can't post it yet.

xxx
The Gypsy

The Netherlands

Muhaw, my attic!
And my ages old pink bed xD I used to like pink so much more.. Even though I never was a girly girl. Weird xD
And muh teddy love!






That's a top view to our jungle like garden. It's really like a forest out there. Dad /never/ does anything to make it look different. I kinda like it though, it's dark and damp ish underneath.

Woah, Gyps was quiet for a few days :P
I know, it's because I've actually not been online much if at all xD
Not busy, per se.

I don't think I can tell day by day what happened, it all passed in a blur to me, frankly.
The last two days in Egypt I was doing twenty zillion things a day, saying goodbyes, buying things, packing them, trying to eat all the leftovers in the fridge.. That last one was what got me in trouble, lol. Food poisoning.

Thursday morning I got up after two hours of sleep, and went with mum on some errands, including the bank, where we got stuck for an hour and a half and then just left cause things just weren't moving. I met up with all the girls one more time, had a coffee, then visited my friend, had more coffee, and fooled around with her adorable cat for a while. Whilst there (even before going) I started complaining about feeling queasy, wanting to be sick, and dizziness. Honestly though, I just thought it was the heat that got to me.
I left her and met up with mum at my aunt's to drop off my car there, mum having already left hers there the day before she came to pick me up with sis's. More goodbyes. Then we went and froze our internet account, and bought the food and whatnot dad wanted us to bring.
Back home mum begged me to cook dinner, which I did, even though by then I was feeling so sick I couldn't stand all the smells whatsoever.

They were all chaotically panicky, packing and running around like headless chickens. I just felt horribly feverish, and actually was sick about twenty times after I had served them dinner. Mostly mum's concern was not for me feeling awful, but for them not holding me back at either airport because of the swine flu and the plague and I don't know what else Egypt has cases of at the moment. They all teased me about being sick cause they thought I was nervous about flying~

No sleep that night, merely running around the house wrapping up everything. My cousin came around 4 am, and carried the bags downstairs whilst sis closed the windows and mum shut off the water. I turned off all the electricity and we had a near-sentimental moment when closing the door. Me and my siblings went for a ultra-quick visit at Pluisje (my cat)'s grave in the front yard of the flat building. I know I take her with me in my heart wherever, but this last year has been tough on me, and whenever I felt like I needed to talk and had no one I'd go there and talk to "her".

We were at the airport really early, which turned out to be grand, because it was way crowded. Apparently it was a just newly built terminal, with a new system the staff themselves hadn't been used to yet. Well, okay, the system would be the same as the one they've been using for the past decade in Europe and America, but it's still new to them. And waiting in line for their turn to come is not one of the strongest points of Egyptians. Probably one of the weakest. It was a chaos. Although I have to admit, if it wasn't for my Egyptian cousin, we would have missed the plane. He merely did not wait for his turn, pushed through the crowds, sidled our bags through the x-ray machine, bid us a good trip and told us to call him when we arrived. xD

I was sick when the plane took off an hour and a half later, and I was still sick when we landed after nearly five hours. I have to say though, Egypt Air had pretty good service, a friendly staff, and a good pilot. I didn't even feel too achy cause of the pressure, but maybe that was because my stomach was a big distraction.

The last two days I've mainly been inside the house, cleaning up the awful mess, and letting my body have another go at me. We did buy toothbrushes and paste and soap and whatnot the first day we arrived, and yesterday we got lots of all-dutch food. :D All-dutch being anything non-Egyptian, cause strictly speaking almost none of it is originally dutch xD

Me and sis went for a nice bike ride, too, in beautiful green, flowery and nature-smelling Dutchlandia~ We rode all the way till I saw a swan, got off the bike, and stopped by the side of the road to watch it watching me. Sis was just as fascinated, and before we knew it ten minutes had passed.
On the way back it rained on us~ And seeing as it's only 17'Celsius, I'm amazed none of us has caught a cold yet what with the thin summer clothes we brought along xD

Today not much happened. Took it really slow, in the hopes of getting better quickly.
I'm also going to try and sleep routinely and work on getting rid of that nasty insomnia, because I've basically been ill since November non-stop, and that's gotto change~

Way much typing. xD
Sorry -sweatdrop-
xxx
The Gypsy

Surprises

Long list of surprises, when I thought there wasn't much left that could surprise me.

Yesterday morning me and mum tried getting bus tickets and failed. They were leaving either too early or too late. Today I called my cousin, he told me he'd drive us all the way to Cairo. That's really decent of him, too, seeing as he doesn't even want us to pay for the trip.
We also went shopping, and we went to pay for the internet. We are going to have to freeze all our accounts, internet as well as mobile phones.
Went home, redressed, left again. Met up with Sally, who just came from America, so it was more or less a bit of a hi/bye meet, more than a decent I'mma-chat-your-ears-off.
Came home after sunset. Again.

Today, busy busy day. Met up with some of the girls, one of whom had brought along two cool guys from America; David and Sami. Utah, to be exact. I didn't know I could be social, but apparently it works if I try. They were nice enough, and even though we didn't spend a lot of time around, I already got my official invitation to Utah! xD At least I'll have a sofa to crash on if I'mma take a tour round the States xD

We went to see Coraline, which I've been waiting to see for at least two months. Funnily enough, it didn't turn out to be a typical 3D movie AT ALL. Not very funny, not very melodramatic, not childish, not Disney-ish, whatever that means. Just plain weird. Eerie, in a lot of ways. But that only makes it more special, if you ask me! x3
Then nearly everyone left, and I ended up with two better friends, who were very vague as to why they too would have to be leaving soon. Seeing as I had another appointment with two other friends I figured it wasn't worth nagging about, they left, and I went to those friends....

.... only to park my car, and be steered to a restaurant called The View, with, coincidentally, a beautiful view of the sea. I was starting to question their intentions, after each of them had locked my arm into theirs, literally kidnapped me in there. I objected, but it was all like "We'll go have a quick look, we'll be outta here in no time, we'll yadda yadda.." I didn't question it, mainly cause I needed to complain about something else... xD
Until I saw half my class (alright, I'm exaggerating! we were 8 in total) waiting there for me going SURPRIIIISE! xDDD

I was dumbfounded. Had no clue that all the vagueness and secrets were actually about ME. Or about something for me anyways. Turned out to be a sort of goodbye slash very late birthday party. They got me a belt and bracelets, and bought me a big ice cream that almost immediately melted cause it was so hot, even though it was nearing sunset.
Came home really late, but content.

At home they also decided to get me my birthday presents way late (!). I got a travel mug from my brother, a thermal one, wootness. And a guitar bag from my sis, a real beauty. Both travel-inclined gifts, but that just makes them all the more special cause I NEED these. xD Now I can bring my guitar! ~whoops happily~
Oh and she got me guitar snares as well. :3
And mum says she's still owed me something but she can't find it so I have to wait.

Yes, I am spoiled rotten.

Four days ago one of the friends (one of the few who put the most effort in today's party) said that because I'm leaving to Holland so soon everyone, and I quote, "Wants a piece of Jessie".. Got to say I'm flattered. I'm going to miss those darlings. She is even going to make a messenger account just to keep in touch with me, even though she hates anything that is linked to computers or internet. Flattered once again.

Sorry for the long ramble, I had some energy to spare.

xxx
The Gypsy

Tirednessss

Lots to tell, not much energy to tell it with.
Yesterday I played chauffeur for mum's friends, they needed a ride down town, and seeing as neither as too good Arabic, a cab just was not an option. Toured around the whole morning and afternoon, and we ate out before going home. I was exhausted.

This morning, again, long day.
Early morning, me sis and my aunt's husband went to make our international licenses.
Didn't take all that long, luckily.
Came home, packed a bit, and had dinner. Then we left and visited half my family to say goodbye.
We just came home, and again I am knackered.

Scary thing is we seem to get almost nothing done nonetheless, and days are passing at a scary rate. Got to see a couple of friends, still got lots of family to say goodbye to, and I can't even think of any gifts to buy, my creativity is failing me on the most awkward times.
I'm going to miss my friends, I know that much. I'd love to spend more time with them, but at the same time I'm psyched about going to Holland. So yeah. Confusing.

I would've told everything in much more detail but I can't summon the strength to.
Gypsy tired. Gypsy go bed. *noddles*

xxx
The Gypsy

*Feels like a cat chasing its own tail*

You see the trouble with me,
Monkey see monkey do,
There's no you and tomorrow,
A better offer came through.

You see the trouble with you,
there is no trouble with you,
So if you say that you love me,
That stops me loving you...

-Robbie Williams

Third day off, today.
First day I slept throughout. Seriously, insomnia got me knackered. Got sleeping pills, asked if there was any other option I could try first, so he prescribed me some calming medication thingy. It makes me drowsy day/night, basket case. But at least the first night/day it knocked me out for 14 hours.

Second and third day I managed to stay out from noon till sunset. That means a full eight hours. Doing what? xD Nothing much, really.

Yesterday the cast of the Oresteia (last month's play) met up with each other. The night before it was all "The cast is meeting tomorrow. Come. " Her director's ordering hasn't abated xD
Most of the day went up in thinking where to go. In the end we did not go anywhere. That seems to happen here a lot. People can go out without a plan, and end up going nothing. But somehow, funnily, it never really feels like wasting time.



Today, I went out with my college buddies. Or some of them, anyways, because some were too busy to show up. We went to see a movie "He's Just Not That Into You". Ginnifer Goodwin, Jennifer Anniston, Drew Barrymore, Ben Affleck.. Basically the first time I know more than three actors/actresses in one movie xDD Well, okay, maybe that's not entirely true. But still :3
It was a pretty good movie too. Full of relationship tips I plan not ever to forget :3 Specifically for advice reasons xD
After that just walked around in circles in the mall, till I went home.

About the title, I have too much to do in too little time. We booked tickets to Holland for next week, and I have to do waaaay much before leaving. Doc visits, getting my international license if possible, playing chauffeur for two of mum's friends, not to forget thinking up gifts to buy and actually get them for friends and family back in Holland.. My head.. *head-to-desk*

xxx
The Gypsy

All down, none to go

Watch that.
Don't be annoyed if sound and screen don't synchronize. It's not the point what they're saying anyways. Just watch.

And that's right. It's done. Over. Finito.
Three weeks of exams are over. Seemed to stretch on forever.
Four year of college are over. Those definitely flew by. Maybe too fast.
To be honest, best four years of my stay in Egypt so far. Maybe because all we got to talk about, read about, discuss, think about was much more Western than Eastern.

Before I get all sentimental, and cry and such, I would like to call upon all Greek, Norse and Egyptian Ancient Gods to curse our Drama Professor, for giving an exam that had no variety whatsoever, even though we had five complete different plays to read.
Everybody else seems to have done rather well, but I'm just hoping I'll scratch a pass here, because I did not do all that good... That's not me being modest, by the way. This is me hoping desperately not to flunk an exam I genuinely messed up.
Just need a few days to get over this nasty sick-in-the-pit-of-my-stomach feeling I have for being angry and disappointed at myself.

Other than that, I've had the worst rash for over a week now. I don't know if I mentioned it before now, but it's getting awful. My hands are covered in little itchy blisters which won't go away, I've been using ointment for three or four days now, and the pamphlet said I should have noticed some difference by now. The rest of my body seems allergic to some insect or other, normally I get stung by mosquitoes and it gets a little red and itchy. Now, all the bites are red, inflamed, warm and painful. That with my regular insomnia and cramps. Huzzah.
I say "I hate my body" a lot. But I've been thinking... Maybe my body just hates me.

xxx
The Gypsy

Five down, one to go.

Look at that. Things are finally getting to an end.
And even though I was not very much looking forward to graduating because it would leave me in that deep dark empty tunnel without entrance or exit, exams are pretty much exhausting enough to just wish for it to end. Quickly, that is, with one clean sharp cut. Don't like the idea of exams being like blunt axes hacking away at you.

Comparative literature today. Comparing English to Egyptian texts about Alexandria.
I owe a lot to this course, for frankly, it changed my vision of Alexandria completely. It made me see it as a single identity apart from Egypt, and I like it much more now.
The exam was so general it made me feel like there was a lot to say, and yet a lot to say means generally going completely off point. That, and organization issues. =.=
Hopefully it's good enough, that's all.

Just drama to go now. Definitely a drama. ;-;

On the way home today, there was this guy fixing his car, bending forward so much half his bottom was bare. Made me cringe, alright. The horror.

Something else: I've always had that insatiable thirst to know what is going on in other people's minds. To just poke around silently, without them noticing. Is that creepy?
Sounds to me like it is. xD
Tired.
So tired.

xxx
The Gypsy.

If...

IF

Rudyard Kipling's Verse

If you can keep your head when all about you
 Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
 But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
 Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
 And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
 If you can think-and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
 And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
 Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
 And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
 
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
 And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
 And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
 To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
 Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
 Or walk with Kings-nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
 If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
 With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
 And-which is more-you'll be a Man, my son!

~*~*~*~

xxx
The Gypsy

Four down, two to go.

Got some bad news health wise, which might be ruining my mood if I let it get to me.

Otherwise I've been alright. Stressed, because of exams, but alright. =)
Poetry went pretty well, for a poetry exam. I are hopeful. Woot.

What else happened?
Oh, foreign-muslim-ladies-stuck-married-to-Egyptians, that club mum's part of, got together and rented a place for meetings and other activities (spanish classes, chinese classes, sewing lessons... Embroidery, cooking, and I don't know what else xD)
They had a sort of welcome cutting-the-ribbon sort of thing, again, with lots of cakes/cookies/goodness. I learned a few more words I can add to my Spanish vocabulary, and I gots taught teh Origami :3 I gots to make these heart flower thingies, they be way cute xD -and according to the Singaporean lady not all that basic a level, but pretty advanced *proud*- lol










Insomnia is getting to me.
Maybe I should really consider those sleeping pills.

xxx
The Gypsy.